Never Come Close

You will never come close

to knowing the hurt,

You will never be near

to feeling the pain

of being ripped open 

by your double edged knife, 

over and over

and over again....

Feeling so used, 

kind of convenient

like a 7 Eleven store,

just take what you need 

at that particular moment.

And I tell myself,

it can't happen again;

And I say to myself,

you've learned your lesson.

Yet somehow you know

what to say, 

what buttons to push,

what games to play,

that brings me back

to you again....

Only to be re-cut ,

sliced, ripping open

the old scar

to make it hurt some more.

If it makes you feel good

who cares about feelings?

So here I lay alone

aching like no pain

I have ever felt, 

convulsing from the hurt

of a shredded heart

once again.....

Life Long Friends

I have heard the expression; Friends are Flowers in the Garden of Life. This rings so true for me and my garden is blooming so wonderfully!! When I look back at my life, I have been so blessed!! There have been so many people that I have touched and been touched by. But reality is sometimes sad. I just had a friend pass away at 52 years old and it was so sad to be at her funeral and realize that I'm getting older (and wiser??) too. May you find peace Eden in the afterlife and may your eternal garden of Eden be beautiful beyond compare! And thank you to all my friends of past, present and future for enriching my life and making my personal garden so breathtaking to wonder through in my mind!!

Pink Patunias - Hot Springs, S. Dakota

Oh The Places You'll Go!

Oh, The Places you'll Go!! 

My daughter is graduating in June 2013 from High School and I really can't believe how fast the time has
gone by. She has been such a joy to me and has never been a a problem. She truly is my greatest 
accomplishment and I wish her the best in everything that she endeavors. The road will be long and 
sometimes bumpy but I know that she will be successful no matter what she does!

A Half Century

They say you're over the hill when you get to a certain age but age is truly only a perspective. It is not the amount of time you live but the amount of living in your time. What is important is that you have a guide to follow...a light at the end of the tunnel to help you reach your goal. There will be rough spots and storms to weather and it all depends on how you handle that and who you have with you to help you through it~ Sometimes when the winds shift you just have to adjust you're sail. Yet people don't want to work hard for anything anymore. It seems like they want it handed to them...nice and easy without the sweat equity. It doesn't work that way, you have to show that you deserve what you receive. What goes around, comes around. You will be treated the way you treat others, that fickle finger of fate will point at you and you have to be ready to take it. So don't give up. There is help out there if you at least look for it! Remember to breath, accept and find some inner peace in your heart.

Life is a Gift

You've heard the expression "stop to smell the roses" but so many in today's world have truly missed and forgotten how to do just that. They rush through each day running and running in circles that lead them nowhere. Yet all around them there are moments of peace, moments of love, moments of beauty that they don't see because of their eyes being closed. If only more people would take the time to discover some peace, tell someone they love them or take a moment to admire the kind of beauty that comes from within. Time is such a gift, that's why they call it the present and if you don't realize before it's too late, then you end time with regrets, regrets that you can't usually change because it's too late. These are words that are easy to say but difficult to live. So much is baring down on the average person, responsibilities, requirements, resentments.... So whoever you are, where ever you are, take this moment to vow to stop...just stop.... and remember what it is you're really living for! If you're unhappy where you are, what you're doing then try to the best of your ability to change it. That can be as easy as changing your attitude and as hard as changing you're whole life. Only you know the answer...deep down...where the beauty really lies.....

Ode to Allison.....

Our love warms my heart, like the September sun on the
water's cool vastness....
enriching the blue depths with the colors of life.

Our love moves my soul, like the mystic breeze caresses the water's surface.....
as if to tell it secrets of places tenderly touched.

Our love surrounds my life, like the changing trees encompasses
the water's edge.....
gently protecting its banks while beautifying its base.

Our love is you and I, like two swans cast adrift without a certain pattern......
but living a specific purpose of fulfilling the other's needs.

Don't expect me to walk on water!

Funny how we don't think about how we treat other people in our life. People that we love or say we love and cherish. Or even strangers in the street, coworkers, neighbors, friends. Why is it that we hurt the ones we love the most?

How can there be so much evil in the world and so many are clueless to its force?

I try to have a positive attitude, a positive influence on the people around me. Isn't there enough sadness today that we all have to deal with? Why would I add more to it by being cruel or treating someone unkind? And yet so many people don't see the reality in front of them! They watch reality TV and call that real!

How can they hope to make it in this world without being able to see the truth?

This posting has alot of questions and I'm dealing with alot of questions right now in my life. I don't know if I'll ever find the answers but I'll keep looking.