Never Come Close

You will never come close

to knowing the hurt,

You will never be near

to feeling the pain

of being ripped open 

by your double edged knife, 

over and over

and over again....

Feeling so used, 

kind of convenient

like a 7 Eleven store,

just take what you need 

at that particular moment.

And I tell myself,

it can't happen again;

And I say to myself,

you've learned your lesson.

Yet somehow you know

what to say, 

what buttons to push,

what games to play,

that brings me back

to you again....

Only to be re-cut ,

sliced, ripping open

the old scar

to make it hurt some more.

If it makes you feel good

who cares about feelings?

So here I lay alone

aching like no pain

I have ever felt, 

convulsing from the hurt

of a shredded heart

once again.....